04/01/09

I don't feel like writing.
I don't feel like going back to school.
I don't feel like I'm turning 18 on Saturday.
I don't feel like sitting through five one hour lessons tomorrow.
I don't feel like doing mountains of coursework.
I just feel like I want to snuggle under my duvet and forget about the things I don't want to do.
I want life to be a musical. I want it to be fun. I want to be happy 24/7. I want there to be no stress or pressure.
But there is, and that's life, so we have to deal with it.

Christmas.
It's come and gone, over for another year, and yet, It doesn't feel like we've even had it yet.
It was over far too quickly. Now it's back to reality. Back to the things I don't want to do.
I hate it.

Thursday, thursday, thursday. I'm so nervous. - ahhh.
I want to skip to Friday.
Friday I'm going to T.G.I Friday's for a birthday a meal with my family and Beckie's family. Can't wait!
Just need to get this week over with first.
Indeed.

Listening to the 'twilight' soundtrack. Bella's lullaby is very relaxing. Just learnt how to play some of it on piano. :)

Writing and writing.
With nothing useful to say.

I've been writing thank you letter's, essays and I've just enough right now.
I can't write anymore.

May just get in my pyjamas & watch a film. WIth my laptop of course!! so I can tweet away on twitter!! >loooove it!

Bought some stuff for school today, the usual stationary and notebooks. Reminds me how much bloomin' coursework I have!!!
Good c/w - film! I get to edit - wahay!! and possibly be in it :)
It's a horror film called 'vengeful spirit' - ooooooo

Four films to choose from of which I bought today:
-Corpse Bride
-One missed call
-Vacancy
-Pulse

Three horror films, the other an amazing Tim Burton film!!

Tim Burton, Amazing.
I loved his version of Charlie and the chocolate factory - lets boogie!! (quote Johnny Depp -heehee)

I really want to see this film 'Coraline' which should be coming out soon, I think it's made by Burton, not sure, but it sure reminds me of nightmare before christmas!!!

Right, just found out about this 'youtube ladder' - pay a pound to get your name on the ladder and get promoted.
Okay....no thank you.
I don't do youtube for popularity votes.

OMGFG!! Safari just closed itself for no apparent reason so half my blog I typed just disappeared, thanks for auto-saving you stupid thing!!!!! Grrr..

Ooooo -just found a creme egg!!
Sorry, random change of subject.

Good news. I can access blogspot at school. Our school, or should I say the good-for-nothing government block most sites in schools and places of education ; such as youtube, twitter and all social networking sites. However, at one point, they blocked wikipedia!!? I mean for heavens sakes, that is educational, why block that?
Idiots. Honestly.

So if i'm sitting alone in my lunch hour, doing coursework, I may just type away.
Even if people don't read this, it's something for me to look back on. I suppose.
I...I....don't know what else to write.
I want to go to disneyland or somewhere magical.
If only places like that existed; terabithia, narnia, hogwarts...wow.
We can dream :)

I HATE MY MOTHER!!! Ugh. Sorry random outburst. She's so unreasonable and manipulative. AHHHHHHHHHH.
Right, moving on.

I think I've talked or 'typed' for long enough now.
Going to go and watch a film or something.

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